I tried hard to make a few new goals this year. However, to be honest, it wasn't working out.
I feel like last year I lost a bit of myself. The fall of 09 really took a lot out of me. I was so incredibly unhappy on the road. I felt isolated and completely disconnectd. I felt like I was drowning in the tears I cried almost every day. I literally was living each day just hoping to survive till the next one. I wanted to be grounded, but all I could think of was how easy it would be to run away.
And you call me a Drama Queen?
Looking back, it makes me laugh a bit because nothing I lived through was that bad compared to others in this world. I'm lucky.I'm blessed. I've always been supported and loved, but, in 2009 I forgot all that. It's funny how you can go through life miserable, just to look back and realize it wasn't that bad after all.
So instead of making a list of things to do, I decided on changing my outlook.
I really want to live this year. Really Breathe it. Take it in, Devour it.
As much as I struggle with my job, I realize how blessed I am to have it. I live a golden girl life. I travel all over the great state of CA and someone else foots most of the bill. It's not perfect, but it is amazing. I think about all the places I've seen, all the people I've met and know that it wouldn't have happened otherwise.
I realized this past month that I know deep down inside, I will not be a road warrior forever. This year, I'm really going to enjoy it.
***On a side note, I know it's a bit late to be doing a birthday round up. Heck, I turned 27 over a month ago. I'm practically 28, however I realized a few days ago that for the past 6 years, I've celebrated my birthday in 6 different locations.
This is a trend I like.
22:Pullman, WA
23:Seattle, WA
24: Osaka, Japan
25: Indianapolis, IN
26: San Francisco, CA
27: Salamanca, Spain
I wonder where 28 will take me.
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